Sometimes (As the title says...)
i feel like nobody even knew my existence, neither my disappearance
it's like with or without me, it doesn't make a difference
i've been childish, i admit
but what more can i do, to let me know that you cared, or maybe you never did
trying as much as i can, to be in the crowd, but emptyness just filled me
i want to, but you didn't give
you gave, and i rejected
the road is just not that smooth, i guess

Friendship,
sometimes i ask myself, should i really put it first in my life
when people don't give their best,
treat you the most real,
or even quit the game in your life
i know that everyone have different priorities, i understand
people are selfish and greedy
get it, and not wanting to share, but just wanting more
more than you'll ever need
remember the times when we were all young,
the casual phrase that hangs by our lips-
"Friends Forever"
can we really be forever, it's a doubt for me, for everyone
the need for a friend it's because you need someone to care for you,
when you are emotionally unstable
it's because you need someone to pour out your stuffs to,
when you have problems or secrets to share
it's because you can't live alone,
that's what a friend is for

Love,
something almost everyone seek for
that special significant other
who, who, who will it be
we all won't ever know
the cuts and bandages over that heart
moulds you to become a better lover
time will have its way
of taking back, everything you thought you had
always anticipating when your significant other will appear,
will he or she love you just the way you love him or her
the problem always lie with me, i know
i know it all
questions filled me too
why,
why do i always react like this
this sense of acheivement, this way of letting go so easily
it's not that i want to react this way
but i just can't help it man
deepest apologies to those i've hurt
because i always believe that
when there is a start,
there's an end
i never see a relationship that could last forever
not me, no
but surely i dreamt, i hopes, i wished for
sigh, i hope for you- the impossible

If and Try,
they always come together don't they
people always motivate you by them,
"If you ... , then try to ..."
sometimes i just dislike these two words
it's like, you assume everything
every thing
yup, it definitely motivates you
because everything is just an assumption
both negative and positive can hurt you,
badly
negative ifs let you get depress
when you don't know a single truth
positive ifs give you high hopes
only to let you drop deeper
but still,
they are nice words

Standards,
mine are defitnitely too high to reach
that's why disappointment floods me
lower down your expectations of others
i always tell myself
but it's not that easy
never expect them to do what you can do
never dream that they will do what you think they will do
because it's all only your wishful thinking
the lessons i've learnt
didn't really teach me alot
because i'm still on the verge
of lowering the standards
i only need time

Why so emotional out of a sudden, haha.
cause last night i read JenYi's blog. cool thing.
eh, Jen, sorry that i sort of copied the way you blog.
but actually i've been wanting to post something innovative, like how i'm feeling these few days..
then just nice, JenYi also posted. haha.
but hers is much much cooler (x8).
i just love reading Ming and her blog. (L)
i can just feel all the emotions just by reading the words.
how cool is that. haha.
so you must go visit them too. heh.
maybe i'll link Ming up, or maybe not.
normal posting will come soon.
i've been wanting to post, but've been busy busy busy.
Stay tune. :)

  ¶ 11:50 PM