Second emo post.
Firstly, i hope to know who's Imnotyouimi.
Cause he or she confirm is talking about me. i don't think our problems need him or she to interfere. i'm not scolding you now, but perhaps your friend? This Imnotyouimi guy.
Who ask you to kpo our matters. Even if she shares her problems with you, and you read my post, does that give you any right to say me or judge things when you don't even know what exactly happen or how i'm feeling now?
Yah, Yah, i'm always in the wrong. i'm always the bad guy. Happy?


i don't think it's entirely your fault. i think both of us are at fault.
i think that i should avoid _ and not talk to _ anymore.
Since seeing me and _ talking or whatever hurts you so much, i shall not talk to _ anymore.
Great, now i don't know what to say.
Like i said in my messages, i only wanted you to be happy.
If leaving me and my directness can make you happier, i'm willing to leave you.
Just like Lisa, i believe everyone can see that she's happier with WingShan or Jennier than she was with me.
i just need time to adjust with that uneasiness.
Only now, i don't know who to turn to.
My so called alot of friends won't be there for me..
i really don't know how to tell you this, but i really don't have alot of friends as you think i have.


Although i was with the rest yesterday, i wasn't really happy at all.
i laughed, i smiled.
But all these didn't come from within, down inside i'm still sad and angry with the reaction that you gave Daryl.
But it doesn't matter now, cause it's already over.
The reason why i said alot of never minds in my messages, is just that i hope that we won't quarrel. i didn't really want to pursue the matter, but i think i have to speak for myself.
i didn't didn't want to talk to you.
There are alot of times where i wanted to say that i'm s___.
But i will keep my promise, since you don't like people who break their promises.
i'm sure that you didn't give me that kind of reaction before.
You know why? Even if you did, it was because you were happy or hyper then, then you would give me that kind of reaction when you see me.
But yesterday.
You were sad towards emo, there's nothing i can seem to do.
i tried to cheer you up, but how? None of my words reached your ears, none of them even made you smile.
If my trying made your smiling so hard, i think i'm really a friend of failure.
i cannot even cheer my closest friend up, do you know how much that hurts?
And then at your point of lowest, Daryl was the one you wanted to see and talk to, not me.
From emo you changed to like your happiest moment of your life, do you know how much that costs?
Try to put yourself in my shoes.
i was super emo. None of your words cured me. But when i see Joy (whom is closer to you but quite close to me) i was super happy that i was smiling and jumping towards Joy and shouting her name, when you are just beside her, and i can't seem to even sense your presence at all.
Try it. Does it feel good?


i'm not angry at you for telling me that you are angry at me, i really wasn't.
Somehow, i was greatful. i realised how bad of a friend i've been.
i really appreciate you to tell me all my bad points and what are you unhappy of me of.
So that i could change for the better for you.
Really, i wasn't angry at you showing your anger towards me, it's not wrong.
It's human nature.


i don't know how to say this anymore.
i never said that i don't want our friendship, it's just that i only wanted you to be happy if you are happier with other people.
Is that wrong?
Never mind already, it's my fault.
My fault for don't know how to be a good friend.
For not having enough patience.
For being too direct.
For being jealous.
i don't mean it sarcastic if you think i am.
  ¶ 1:20 PM